What do i know of HOLY???

this song beholds the questions on my heart as of late... i have found myself so busy with the everyday things that come my way that i have missed what life is really all about. it is so easy to get caught up in "this world" and forget why i am even placed on this earth. i hate to admit that. i hate that i often find myself very shallow in my thinking.

there are a few seasons in my life that i miss... i miss being in school because at least i was studying the Word all the time, hearing chapel messages and worshiping daily. living in Africa was an even better chapter, because prayer goes into the littlest things. you see, its quite impossible to be "self-sufficient" there like it is here. for the most part, in the western world, we do not NEED God, because we can do it all by ourselves, but in a third world country, where my southern accent and white face mean absolutely NOTHING... there is a different story. praying for EVERYTHING seems normal, but just not here. WHY IS THAT????

but where am i now? now i find myself praying in very short intervals throughout the day for little prayer requests i get from twitter or friends texts or things on my heart, over meals, putting the boys to sleep, and as i drift off to sleep... that is NOT where i want to be. ITS TIME FOR A PRIORITY CHANGE!!! i guess i feel as if i write this down for all to see, that it will hold me accountable, because i do not want to be seen as a liar.


a few weeks ago we had a sermon series on worship. Jeremy Kingsley probably gave the best sermon i have ever heard on worship. i realize my problem with my priorities is the fact that i have a skewed view of God vs. me. i have made a HUGE miscalculation in life and i have a too big of view of myself and a too small of view of God. i have been putting myself on a pedestal and God in a box and with that my worship is very limited. this song by Addison Road, What Do I Know of Holy, describes the sermon perfectly!




I made You promises a thousand times
I tried to hear from Heaven
But I talked the whole time
I think I made You too small
I never feared You at all No
If You touched my face would I know You?
Looked into my eyes could I behold You?

(CHORUS)
What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?
Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?

I guess I thought that I had figured You out
I knew all the stories and I learned to talk about
How You were mighty to save
Those were only empty words on a page
Then I caught a glimpse of who You might be
The slightest hint of You brought me down to my knees

(CHORUS)
What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?
Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?

(CHORUS 2)
What do I know of Holy?
What do I know of wounds that will heal my shame?
And a God who gave life "its" name?
What do I know of Holy?
Of the One who the angels praise?
All creation knows Your name
On earth and heaven above
What do I know of this love?