Saturday, October 30, 2010


so for weeks on end i have had the worst time sleeping... i think i mentioned this before... but its not getting better. i am up late at night laying awake in bed for hours awake in the middle of the night for hours... and normally not because of the boys waking up. i am up burdened to pray. my heart aches for my child/ren who are waiting for us in Africa. but i dont even know what agency or country we are going to use. i think i narrowed it down to 2 agencies: holt international and america world. we are leaning towards Ethiopia because it is a well oiled country to adopt from in Africa and because i love the country, culture, food and have this unexplainable attachment ever since 2001 when i was there. but we are still praying for guidance as to where and with whom and how many children.

in the middle of the night this week i opened my Bible to the back and looked up waiting and this is the verses that popped out to me... yes a little out of context but it still reassured me

Romans 8:23 Not only so, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for our adoption

Romans 8:26-27 And the Holy Spirit helps us in our weakness. For example, we don’t know what God wants us to pray for. But the Holy Spirit prays for us with groanings that cannot be expressed in words. And the Father who knows all hearts knows what the Spirit is saying, for the Spirit pleads for us believers in harmony with God’s own will.


Tracy said...

Just a tidbit fact - when researching, I had called AAI and explained that we had NO money but had faith that God would provide. They completely did not understand and advised me to wait until we had the money to pay for the adoption.

Another, you know I'm going to tell you I love AWAA. But the primary reason is the 'community' that we have of having a Christian agency with Christian parents. The reps pray for us and our needs - and the parents have a close group which prays for each others needs and gather for fasts and prayer when things get tough. Would love to talk soon!