Monday, May 09, 2011

heart torn mothers day

i have a wonderful mother, had a fabulous day celebrating together, enjoying the quality time, beach adventure, lupper, and many memories made. thanks mama, HAPPY MOTHERS DAY

i have amazing little boys, who are growing up so fast. Eli is innovative, intuitive, independent, compassionate, and loving. Levi is passionate, determined, creative, cuddle bug, and sweet.

i have a little kicker & hiccupper growing each day inside my belly.

i have much to be thankful for this mothers day, and dont get me wrong I AM

however, this mothers day my heart is burdened more than any other mother's day

for my friends who are struggling with infertility and loss of children.

for the 163 MILLION kids around the world who do not have a mother to celebrate with.

for the children we will add to our family, who may already be orphaned, alone, with most likely a shortage of shelter, food, health care, love, someone to care for their needs, the ability to just be a kid. my heart aches, burns, and desires to have them home so that i can love them, feed them, hug them, put a band aid on their boo-boo, share the love of Christ with them.

i read a story about two little boys, who dont look any older than Eli who live in Uganda. they were dropped off in one of the slums by their mother, and she just walked away and left them to fend for themselves. just hours ago my boys were over tired and cried for me to just lay in bed and pat their backs and sing worship songs til they fell asleep. i cant imagine the desperation of just leaving them in filth to fend for themselves. i dont even let my kids play in the back yard by themselves let alone the streets of a major city. to read the whole story visit this awesome mama's blog

i care about the 163,000,000 children who are orphaned, alone, who do not have a mother to care for them. i want to do something. i want to bring them home and i want to place other kids in homes as well. i want to make an impact. i want to make disciples of all nations. i want to follow Him the rest of my days. i want to step out of the box and do something radical according to this society, because this is not my home! i am made for more than this life that i am living...

"once our eyes are opened, we can't pretend we don't know what to do. God, who weighs our hearts and keeps our souls, knows what we know, and holds us responsible to act." proverbs 24:12

"i know what i know and i cant deny it, something on the road cuts me to my soul"
-sara groves, i saw what i saw

"now that i have seen, i am responsible, faith without deeds is dead"
-brook fraser, albertine


Tracy said...

I love your heart. And no - yours is not a torn heart.. your heart is one made in the perfect way that God designed, a way in which most of us would rather fit a band-aid and go about our business - hiding HIS hurt from the world. Where you allow your heart to over-flow and spill God's love out on all around you ------ can't wait to see the perfect children that God chooses to reside there. It will come, it will come.