unexplainable

i am so distracted these days...

so distracted by a concept to most

but its not concept to me... its reality

majority wont understand and that doesnt sit well with me

but my reality is my reality

my feelings are my feelings

and i dont really care what you say or dont say

im not trying to impress you, win your favor, or even be your friend

i am following my heartstrings and loud speaker callings

i know without a shadow of doubt that the Lord has broken my heart for His purpose

i know that He has broken my heart and calls me to pray in the middle of the night every night as of the last couple of months

i know that He has a plan, even when it is not my plan

its hard... oh so hard... some days down right impossible

im so tired of saying goodbye... baby after baby after baby (beginning long ago)

i cant even count how many i have had to release...orphans to death, an orphanage, or someone else adopting them, and physically by miscarriages...

my heart yearns, aches, breaks for the babies/children of ours that the Lord has
called us to welcome into our home... but how, when, and where are still questions in the air... clarity, wisdom, discernment, direction oh my Lord

Starry Night

From the Birds that Sing, In the Tallest Trees.
To the Human Life, of you and me.
From the Desert Sands, to the place we stand.
He is God of All, He is Everything.

I'm giving my life to the only One who makes the moon reflect the sun.
Every Starry Night, that was His design.
I'm giving my life to the only Son, who was and is and yet to come
Let the praises ring, 'cause he is everything

From the autumn leaves, that will ride the breeze
To the faith it takes, to pray and sing
From the painted sky, to my plank filled eye
He is God of all, He is everything

I'm giving my life to the only one who makes the Moon reflect the sun
On that Starry Night, He changed my life.
I'm giving it all to the only son who gave me hope when I had none.
So let the praises ring,
Oh Let the Praises Ring

pumpkin patch & corn maze

not as awesome as the midwest... but we still had so much fun making memories as a family!